My intended title was inappropriate... Or, I'm still quoting hilarious things Joe said.

I have a really obsessive fear of being unimpressive. Well, maybe that is taking it to far... Basically I have this crazy anxiety that if I don't do anything at night that it means that I'm a loser. I think this stems from the fact that I used to be the coolest girl ever. It's true. I ALWAYS had plans. What happened to me?

I'm trying to convince myself that "normal" people go home from work and take care of their home and their families and that it is totally acceptable to not leave your house for the rest of the evening. I think if I lived in the suburbs I might feel differently, but as it is, I live in the heart of downtown PDX and I constantly feel like I am missing out on something. I could be at an art show, or trying out a new restaurant, imbibing at happy hour, working out, walking around... the list goes on and on. And, if I'm not OUT, I feel like I need to be doing something super productive at home. I need to cook, clean, organize, plan, fix things, etc. There is no end.

Basically, I feel like I need to be doing SOMETHING at all times or I feel like a giant loser. This is in complete contrast to a good friend of mine who told me that if she is doing things like household chores and errands, she constantly berates herself for not being at home, relaxing, and maybe having a glass of wine (or two!). I think I'd like to find a happy medium.

Does anyone else stress out about this? Or.... is it just me?